No Life

I have friends who I barely see anymore and I just feel like I have no life and nothing to do all the time. Its lame but I guess it just cant be helped but UGH

I'm just bored and tired and spent some of my day in the yard but that was very dull. I like to adventure but that's kinda hard to do when you don't have a car so I just need a buddy to take a long drive to a place neither of us has been before and just get lost. Then again maybe we should bring a GPS I don't have much for a since of direction lol and we might ever make it back home which would suck.

But that enough for today. I don't feel like writing much.

Silly Fish

Today I went out to eat with my family and when we were done with our meal we got our fortune cookies.

My fortune said "Its a silly fish that is caught twice with the same bait." I am that silly fish and have been for a few years now hahaha I have been caught a few times with the same bait by the same guy and that needs to stop, and will stop.

I no longer want to be a silly fish or a silly girl.
I am going to make the right choices when it comes to men now and never relive what has happened in the past.

My past has made me stronger and smarter.

Think about for a minute for yourself is there anyone that you keeping taking the bait from?

Pets

I have been thinking a lot about getting a cat, I love animals. When I really think about it I have the worst luck with pets.
My first cat died because the mean girl next door me when I was little squeezed it to hard. The cat after that died because it got sick and had to be put down and the last cat I had decided it didnt like me and ran away.... Maybe its best I dont get another cat but I really do want one.


That was all the problems with the cats I've had, I've also had 3 bunnies and that ended badly and gerbils, and hamsters..

Also I cant even keep a fish alive SOOOO I even wonder how my daughter is still alive when I cant even keep a fish alive.

Maybe I should rethink getting a pet or I should just say it is Julie's and it might not die to fast or have any other issues. I just have bad luck as it seems.

Dinner Time

So as I sit with my family at the table for dinner I realize I have nothing to talk about with them anymore. With the 19 years that have passed in my life my family and I have nothing in common anymore we are in two different worlds now and and its sad to see.

I love them but I only love them sometimes. I am still at the table writing this while they eat and no one talks to me, even when I wasn't typing this out they didn't say a word to me I guess I am just kinda invisible now.

I just don't understand how I can be so disconnected for them ones I should have the biggest bonds with. All I can think is this suck ass, yo.

So I tell my mother what I am doing on my computer and she just says to me "we just ignore your bad behavior" then she points at my computer and my cell phone and goes back to clearing the table.

Well I do try I guess hahaa maybe another time I can try and bond with them again.

Outside

Wow I had the weirdest morning, I was all like WTF when I heard a loud noise and realized t was a tree my parents had cut down. Seriously its Sunday no one wants to be woken up at 10am or so on a Sunday or be woken up with a loud noise and a mini heart attack ahahaha

So far my day will consist of writing in my blog that no one reads and helping out outside which kinda sucks because I have no upper body strength to help move large pieces of tree
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Instead maybe I'll pretend to be a super hero with my daughter and go WOOOOSH with a cape lmao

Well Im off for now

Awesome

So my last post sucked and wasnt happy what-so-ever. The real me thinks about cake a lot and video games. Also I think about where my life has headed.

But for the most part I seem to like this one guy a good amount but we seem to just go around in circles about dating, seriously I havent given up yet on him like most people SO I guess he is important. I just need to wait and see what happens, I much rather have him in my life as a friend than nothing at all.

Back to the cake though, I really wish someone would make me one hahaha I really really love cake and cupcakes. The way to my heart is if you can make me a cake ^.^

Green is also my favorite color.. Im not the best at writing but I try my best...

Life sucks...yep

Life is so hard and sometimes we just say "screw this" but we have to preserver and do the best with what we’re given. I love my life most of the time but then again it sucks. I have a wonderful daughter named Julie and a family that loves me most of the time. It has taken a long time to get to where I’m at now.

My life is one big EPIC FAIL as I see it, I would have been graduating this month T_T SOO I guess this month is just going to be harder then the rest and I wish I woudnt have failed like I always do but its whatever I guess

Well Im depressed now just thinking about this so Im just going to figure out my next step...Blahh


Think what you want about me. Love me or hate, judge me I dont really care much..