Fall Days

The day keep getting cooler and before I know it winter will be here... I love the fall weather and the days I spend with my daughter Julie and the wonderful weekends I spend with my amazing boyfriend..

These days I'm working in being a more responsible person and a better mother. I am also working on being a good girlfriend and a good best friend, I need to be able to blend all these jobs together instead of it being a juggling act and stressing myself out. A lot of the time I feel like I'm not doing a good enough job at it and I'm neglecting some of what I need to be doing with either not working hard enough to be a good mom or feeling like I could be a better girlfriend and maybe make for effort towards everything.. With my best friend I feel like I am not talking to him enough and that I could lose him if I don't pay attention to what is happening around me..

But these are just fears I have and I cant let them ruin the happiness I do have and I should try to forget my worries about all these things and live my life because everyday I am told I'm a great person and I do a great job at everything I do. So all I can do now is keep going and just let the stress fall away..

New Beginings

I never believed that people could start over and be accepted even though they have a shady, unforgettable past. The fact is most people in this world will judge you for the wrong choices you have made and a few good ones wont. The good ones know that because of all of it you wouldn't be the person you are today..... And I was wrong I now know that with in almost two month time I have been given a new chance at being happy and being looked at like I was a beautiful person again. I have met one of the good ones who has changed my life for the better.

I still don't trust many people or even like them but so far I love everything that has happened, I am also coming to terms with the things that has happened to me and all the choices I've made, the fact is everything really does happen for a reason.

Now that all the bad has happened and left the good can come though...

I have also changed my mind about a lot of things now in hope that someday all the decisions I make now will change my life and make my daughter's life better in the future. Everything is only going to get better as I slowly get put back together from the shattered girl I used to be, to be a strong young woman and great mother..